Intimancy

It's what everyone longs for. We all at some point desire to be in an intimate relationship with someone. I have in many ways found that in Donna, and I am extremely happy with that. But as of late, I have come to realize that I really desire to have an intimate relationship with God.
See the more I fall in love with Donna, the more I realize just how much God loves me, yet at the same time I for the most part lack that relationship. I want Him to be my desire more than anything else, I want Him to be my passion, my love and my life completely, not just a part. But it's not there, there is a lack, and I'm finding that the more knowledge that I receive about Him only causes me to want to know Him on a personal level even more, but I don't know how.

I know that there is soo much more, I know that there is an intimacy with God that He desires me to have. But the fact is I don't have it, and I just don't know how to get to that point. I love God, the forgiveness and grace of Jesus is something that I cherish, but I want more. I don't want God to be there just so I can pray to Him when I am in need, I want intimacy, but I don't know where to go or how to get it. I see the examples in the Bible of men like Peter, or Paul, and examples just though people in my life, and I see that on some level they have a certain depth to their relationship that I lack.

Father I want more of you, and I don't care what you must do to me or in me, if it is going to cause me to know you more, then I am more than willing.

My Birthday!

So I know it's already been almost a week since my birthday, and so this is a little late getting out, but I decided to write about my birthday and then see where it goes from there. OK so here we go!!!

At 8:45, I was awakened to the sound of my phone ringing, I was tired from hanging out with my friends, after Trunk-Or-Treat, way late into the night. So when my phone rang I was in a bit of a daze. Upon answering my phone I was greeted with my family singing Happy Birthday in a pitch that while not really on key, was still pleasant because I loved them all and it was the same off key'dness that I've heard every year since I was little.

I then proceeded to talk with them for about a half hour. After that Donna came into my room, and I opened all the gifts that my family sent me this year. It was awesome. She then told me to get dressed ( I was in my pajamas) so that we could go. So after getting ready, Donna blindfolded me and off we went.

The first place she took me was to Boomers it's a place that has mini-golf, go-carts and various other games and stuff. After OWNING Donna at mini-golf, we went on the go-carts, where I raced this one kid who was really being a punk, so at one point I slammed his back wheel causing him to turn and slam into the wall making him stuck, and thus Aaron Glaize restored order to that go-cart track.

After boomers I was blindfolded again, and was then taken out to eat lunch at Panda Express!!! OH yeah you Orange Chicken and Bejing Beef, you cannot get better than that.

After eating we went out to the Aerospace museum, and had some educational moments. It was really cool to be able to learn all about the various aircrafts used during WWII, I really liked it.

After perusing the museum, we had some time to kill before the next event, and so Donna took me to Seaport Village. We spent time just looking at shops, and just laying on the grass and talking. It was nice and relaxing, and I loved it.

Soon after I was blindfolded again and taken to La Jolla beach were Donna had her family set up a candle lit picnic for us. They didn't stay however, I guess Donna assumed it would be less romantic that way, so Donna and I ate my favorite meal, Lasagna, and just sat on the beach, watched the sun set and talked about our future together. It was really an awesomely special time.

Finally Donna took me to the Cheesecake factory, where here family was waiting for us. We went in and had some FANTASTIC cheesecake. Well... at least I did, everyone else had other types of dessert.

When I finally got home at around 9 that night, I went into my room and found a gift from Donna's folks. They bought me an audio system for my iPod that was remote controlled. That was pretty awesome.

OK well that was my birthday, it really was one of the best birthdays that I have had in a long time, so thank you very much Donna. I love you.

Ok well that's all I want to talk about right now, maybe tomorrow I will write on a more current event.

Work happens...

So work sucks... but that's ok. Because the Lord is still doing stuff with and in me.

I passed!!!

After a week of being nervous, and having to endure such boring classes, I took the test to get my Health Insurance licence. That's right I'm awesome. The test was difficult, but that didn't stop this dude.

Thanks to all of you who prayed for me, I must say that that is more than anything else is what caused me to pass my test. So thanks to all of you, God really does answer prayer.

Work starts tomorrow.

Tomorrows test

So tomorrow is the big day, I have my test coming and it is the big one. If I don't pass it I wont be able to work, and that is really what scares me the most. However, I know that God is loving enough to help me pass the test if He wants me to, and so in that I have peace. I'm gonna study my hind quarters off today, but then that's all I can do at the end of the day.

Anyway so I went to the DMV today, and waited there for what seemed like a million hours in order to get my California Drivers licence and I found out that I had to take the test in order to get it... so I failed that. Which was kind of funny, especially since I still have my Ga. Licence I'm probably the only guy in there who failed the test and still drove home (legally).

Anyway Pray for me for tomorrow, I def. need it a lot. I'll be excited to get this over and done with, and actually get to start working. That will be nice.

It's comin'

With the one year coming up I decided to say that I am excited. I have never been in a relationship with a gal for anywhere near this length, which is exciting. That's exciting, with the one year coming up one thing that I've realized is that I am gonna need to step up my game. I'm not as good as I was at planning these elaborate romantic things as I used to be. I think it's all this TV that I'm watching, it's a known mathematic equation, that TV+time=brainlessness. Im pretty sure I saw something on 20/20 or something about that, besides you know that that's true because it is in a math problem. Anyway so I've pretty much planned what we are going to do for our anniversary, and have tried to be as romantic as possible... so we'll see how that goes. I guess if Donna not only tells you about it, but also then blogs about my romantic fortitude (did I use that word right? gosh I used to know, I blame that loss of memory on that one episode of scrubs where JD does stuff...) then we'll know that I did a good job.

On a side note, the other day upon coming back from the facilities, Donna pretended to fall asleep at the kitchen table. So I snuck up behind here and scared her. She knew I was coming, but when I roared or whatever sound I made, she jumped and bruised her knee. It was her fault, so if she tries to trick you into believing that I somehow purposely bruised her leg, do not believe it. She's a sneaky trickster...

Anyway all this to say that this Sunday, Donna and I will have been together for a year. And what a grand year it has been!!!

Employment

I hate not working, or having a job. To be able to provide for my wife. The problem is I lack experience, and so that makes things a lot harder. Unemployment I think is a lot harder for men, because there is something ingrained in us that causes us to want to provide for us. So if you know of anything good, let me know, and I guess what I'm saying is that I need you all to pray for me to find something.